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01 March 2004 @ 10:34 am
Just a Quick Note  
Just an update to thank everyone for the thoughts and wishes and *hugs*.

The Pet Care folks will be here soon to pick Muddy up - as with our other dogs, we're having him cremated to spread his ashes under out memorial dogwood tree.

Since a few years ago, when my mother and grandfather died within a few months of each other, I've had this wall built around my emotions, somehow trying to make sure nothing gets in enough so that I can be hurt that badly again. It happened after our son died as well, but I managed to get that one torn down. I've been trying to break through this one, but every little emotional setback just puts all the bricks back up. I don't think I'm as emotionally resilient as I used to be.

Now the bricks are back in the wall and I feel pretty isolated again.

Oh, well, in a few days I'll take a deep breath and start with the sledgehammer again.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
FilkerDavefilkerdave on March 1st, 2004 08:08 am (UTC)
*lots more hugs*
Kitanzikitanzi on March 1st, 2004 08:58 am (UTC)
*hug* I've had pets die in similar ways - it's a terrible thing.
Ericacatalana on March 1st, 2004 09:03 am (UTC)
*hugs* I wish I could do something to help - but I think the most I can do is be here for you; sadly this is something you probably have to do yourself. *Sigh* I certainly understand how much easier it is to build our walls than tear them down. I'm thinking of you. *hug*
SurrDavesurrdave on March 1st, 2004 10:12 am (UTC)
Stay healthy, buddy. Call and I'll take you out for a beer.

A lot of people find throwing themselves into their work is a good way to hide. Something to keep in mind, whether it's something you want to do or to avoid.
Scott Snyderbardiclug on March 1st, 2004 11:14 am (UTC)
Big hugs from California.

We love you, and we hate to see you hurt.

Phil Parkertigertoy on March 1st, 2004 11:55 am (UTC)

I'll quickly say a few things you already know, just in case reading them might help. The only way to get anything good out of life is to risk being hurt. You're so much worse off if you don't let anything touch you so it can't hurt you when it's gone. The good times you had with Muddy were worth it, so remember them, go out and have some fun now, and seek more good times in the future. Don't try to replace Muddy, but get another dog for that dog's sake if and when the time is right.
Alanpatoadam on March 1st, 2004 01:14 pm (UTC)
So sorry to hear the news.
Cat Sitting Stillcatsittingstill on March 1st, 2004 04:01 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry! (hugs)
Silksinglemaltsilk on March 1st, 2004 04:16 pm (UTC)
You are loved. We are here, waiting for you. Listening for you. And the moment we hear your sledge smashing away from within, we'll pick up ours, and work from the other side.

You are loved. We are here. Remember that.

cflutecflute on March 2nd, 2004 03:59 pm (UTC)
Second this... you *are* loved, we *are* here...

I lost my grandmother four days before the fourth anniversary of my (now many years defunct) marriage. And, three months later, my father, quite suddenly, one day before my 31st birthday.

Losing loved ones sucks, big time, no doubt about it. May good memories help keep the walls from building up too high.
paltergopaltergo on March 1st, 2004 05:51 pm (UTC)
*hugs and support*
*hugs* I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Its always hard to lose a four-footed family member. I send you care and support from Michigan.